I got that call.

The one that I’ve been dreading for almost a year and a half.

My Dad called this morning to say that it’s time. It’s time to start making final arrangement and calling family together. It’s time to say good-bye. The doctor says that maybe my Mom will last a month at the most – but he really doesn’t think it will be that long.

I knew it was coming. I had a feeling it would be soon. I felt like she was holding on until after the cruise – and even on the cruise she didn’t look good, didn’t eat much, and slept a lot. She’s not really living. I don’t want her to be miserable just because I can’t bear the thought of her not being around anymore.

I’m trying really hard not to be selfish.


About jensmack

Non-Profit HR Director, Scrapbooker, Reader, TV Lover, and Crafter. Also, Neurotic, Sarcastic, Anxiety-filled Mom of Three.
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8 Responses to I got that call.

  1. Missy says:

    oh sweetie, I’m thinking of you.

  2. RMSJr says:

    Dear Jen;

    My heart is breaking for your breaking heart. Find peace during this tragedy. Your mother is always, will always be, surrounded by love.

    Tell her thank you from me, for you.

  3. Milissa says:


    I just want you to know that we are praying for you. I am so sad for you. If you need anything at all please call / email me and I will be there.

  4. chriselda says:

    hi honey! i wanted to let you know i still read your blog and wanted to come out of the lurking to say that i am praying for you in this time of your life.

    i know it’s the standard thing to say. i’m sorry. i’m thinking about you. i’ll pray for you. – but please know that anyone who comments or says these very words to you is deeply touched by your words and thoughts.

    the fact that you say “i’m trying to be selfish” is so powerful in and of itself. i’m sure you’ve told your mom this. she’ll be missed. mourned and remembered. and even better, she’ll be able to rest.

    you are an amazing daughter. the struggle between acceptance and denial is soooooo tough. some people don’t even have it. so to see that you do and are… speaks volumes of you.

    i WILL be thinking of your family

  5. Marti says:

    <> You know I’m praying for you. For all of you, your mom, your dad, your sisters, your whole family. Please let me know if I can do anything. Anything at all.

    Your mom is loved dearly and will be missed by all of us who have been privileged to have her in our lives.

  6. jen jen says:

    you know i love you, and your family, and i’m here for you….

  7. Josie says:

    I will be talking to the Big Guy on behalf of you and your entire family. I hope you will come to see the past months as a blessing preparing for this time. Even with a heavy heart you will minister to others and once again show your family what family means. I love you, Jen

  8. Jules says:

    my bag is ready whenever you need me.

    love you.

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